curiosity.

Ever wonder what it's like to love with all your heart but never receive any in return?
To smile through the storm despite the thunder and lightening you heard?
and why continue to give when all they do is take?
Does he know you can't be replaced?
I wonder if he ever thought to consider your pain,
if he ever saw the tears you tried to hide or feel the love you couldn't disguise?
What if he never meant anything he said, then would that mean all your love was in vain?
What if he were me, and I were him,
and I lied, cheated, and disrespected him?
What if I contaminated his mind, body, soul only to leave it there lying in the cold?
Oh, but what about when that girl you played becomes something great, will that be your biggest mistake?
You know she really loved you with all her heart, do you ever ask yourself,
"damn why wasn't I smart, and treated her how she should be treated insted of being the worst lesson she was ever taught,
& loved her like she couldn't be bought or apologize since I don't say sorry?
I'm sure that would ease her heart,
& when that baby was a maybe why didn't I make her feel like a lady,
even though we wasn't ready?"
You always said being in love with you will make her stronger,
trust me it did and she knows her worth despite the feelings she harbored.
Aye, but did you hear about her new man?
I hear he sexin' her better than you can,
& loving lovin' her better than you did,
& giving all that he can give!
nah, there's no new man, but I bet you got nervous for a minute ,
regrets started to fill your head but you will never admit it.
I spoke with her the other day and she wated me to tell you this,
"I could bash you, but I got my serenity back
even though I could never get my virginity back.
I thank you.
I'm better because of you. I love harder because of you. I smile because of you.
I laugh because of you. I still love you but I am through. I'm wiser because of you, even less selfish because of you. I lost some of me in you but it's okay because I know God isn't through.
If you want maybe you'll be blessed with a second chance to do what you didn't do because I meant what I said I will always love you, but lately I've been thinking I'm ready to replace you.
Like you say, God willing,
but until then I win you, you lose".
Curiosity filled her head so she asked me to write about you <3.